Ramadhan datang lagik...

Assalamualaikum Ramadhan....tahun ni..tahun hijrah yang ke 1432...

Seperti tahun2 hijrah yg lepas....semua umat Islam akan menunggu2 kedatangan Ramadhan....betapa berkatnye bulan ni...subhanallah...Allah aje yg tau....aku...seperti yg lain...punya seribu impian yg ingin aku kejar utk Ramadhan kali ni...sesungguhnya..mmg Ramadhan kali ini byk kelebihan nye utk aku...banyak benda yg berlaku utk aku sebelum Ramdhan yg baru ini...buat aku terfikir...sebenarnya...itu la cara Allah utk buat aku fikir panjang yg hidup ni singkat...akhirat la tujuan kita....

1) aku baru habis belajar november yg lepas....dan sekarang..walaupon chambering tu still kire belajar...tp aku da kenal erti tanggungjawab....pada bos....kerja kene siap before certain time...kene meet dateline...kene make sure client tak kene interest bank..kene make sure keje tu to the best for the client's interest ans scope...persoalan nye ialah....ape pulak tanggungjawab aku pada Bos yg Maha Besar pula????mcm sembahyang laa....wajib buat certain2 time..aku sendri kene make sure yg interest aku kat akhirat nnti terbela.....

2) sejak 2 minggu lepas....aku dapat 3 berita tentang kematian....sumpah...berita mcm ni sgt dreadful...i was crying n crying the moment encik syg msg bgtau..."Hunny, shakira alep meninggal" Ya Allah....baru mcm 2 hari before that we were chatting with each other n i told her to take a good care of herself n its good to know that she is now moving on with her life...mmg kn...jodoh ajal di tgn tuhan....sungguh..aku tak sangka yg Allah akan tarik nyawa dia secepat ni....then...aku dapat berita...ayah kawan ra[at aku kat skolah dulu meninggal....Takziah fatin...moga roh arwah dicucuri rahmat...tabah la wahai sahabat....sesungguhnya Allah maha mengetahui....then...semlm....ibu mertua ucu manja meninggal....aku hanya pandang pada wajah2 saudara yg kehilangan....aku??cuba aku letak kn tempat aku di tempat mereka...rasanya...mereka sgt tabah....jikalau aku di situ...aku pasti menangis....meratap....dan meraung....sungguh...aku belum bersedia utk kehilangan org2 kesayangan aku....Ya Allah...sempena Ramadhan kali ini...aku panjatkn doa agar kau panjangkan umur kedua ibu bapa ku...keluarga ku...bakal suami ku dan keluarga nya....dan rakan2 ku dan keluarga mereka.....kau berila kami peluang utk meraikan Ramadhan yg akan dtg lgi......

3)Ramadhan kali ini....insyaAllah...Ramadhan terakhir aku sebelum bergelar isteri....soalan bersedia atau tidak....itu bukan soalan lgik...yg penting aku harus persiap kn diri utk jd isteri yg baik buat encik syg....betul...kami 2-2 iman takla tebal mane....tp....masing2 sedang perbetulkn diri...bukan mudah utk hidup berumah tangga....itu yg selalu encik syg ckp...i know..deep inside he is trying his best to provide everything for me...encik syg.....hunny doa Ramadhan kali ni Allah akan beri kite sejuta keberkatan utk kite melayari hidup berdua....moga Allah takkn uji kite dengan rintangan dan dugaan yg besar dan hebat..moga kite dpt menjadi satu keluarga yg diredhai....insyaAllah...

Ramadhan....thank you for coming....im so happy ive another chance to meet you again this year...oh Allah....berila peluang taubat utk aku...keluarga ku...bakal suami ku...rakan2 ku...da semua umat Islam di dunia dan di akhirat....

tahniah Malaysia

ok...mmg frust tahap executive class...tp adat laa...maybe tade rezeki mesia nk menang..nk wat cner...

smua dok kate defender mesia tah pape...tapi diorang pon da cube sehabis baik...kesian gak laaa..ok la tu....dulu bola sepak mesia lgik teruk...now da byk improve..sume hebat2 kn...despite 2 beradik kembar yg da kawen n now hampeh gile main..yg lain ok kot..safee sali....kunalan..muslim...khairul fahmi....syg sharul idlan aje tak berapa nk best mlm ni...hurm...

ok...saye frust kot...gile frust...tp tak pe mesia...cube lgik!!!!!!pade org yg kate mesia akan kalah tu...tak tau hati perut korang ni cner....korang gi la negara lain..tade smangat cinta kn negara lgsg!

tahniah laa pemain mesia....sorry la korang tak menang...korang sure frust kn...takpe laaa..ade la game lain yg korang akan menang...jgn give up...ni sume pengajaran...hopefully...kite sume akan jd yg lebih baik kn..mane tau...siapa tau...tu sume keje Tuhan..yg pasti kite kene kerja keras lgik...come on Malaysia....i love you Harimau Malaya.........................................................................................

P/s: singapore..kindly go to hell....hahahhaha*benci ko!*

WTF....where's the fun??

when was the last time???like 2 months before rite???

anyway...blog is always the place where i wanna spill everything out but i dunno where..so here it is..just bear with me..i will be like a little bit here n there...but please dont quit...all i need is someone to read this..n understand me......

first of all...i am a 24 years old girl who is getting married soon with not so many friends....which i dunno why....yes..tru enuf..i have someone....but...would it like always there for me???how about the times when we were bickering bickering n bickering with each other??yes..true...im lonely...everytime i tried to spill it out...people will say..."well at least u have boyfie"darn it.....i just need a pair of ears who will listen to me...i just need someone...who will always listen to me...just listen....i thought i am a good listener....or i will try my best to be a good listener...there are times that i cannot make it..but i will try anyway.....

getting married is never easy....im worried....im worried that i cant make it...im afraid that im not a good wife...not a good daughter in law...n not a good daughter....im afraid coz im not sure about myself....there are a lot of unsettled things that i ve to think about...n i dunno to whom should i spill it out.....i try to spill it out to my fren...but....again..i will get the same response...well..at least you are getting married...

i wanna tell him....all of this..that im worried...that im afraid....that there are still so many things outstanding....but..everytime i tried...i cant say it...i dunno what stop me..is it because our lack of communication lately????is it because i dont wanna worry him....is it because we spend less time together...n everytime we spend together with..we end up arguing with each other...there is no more good nite call...nor wake up call....there is no more a simple SMS just to say take care.....what went wrong actually????where is the fun???i keep it all too long already...that i cannt hold it anymore...i feel like i wanna burst but im afraid of the consequences...im shocked to notice that even one word would led us to huge argument...i dont wanna fight....i will try my best nowadays to keep it low..to hold my self..to be more rational....i failed is it???

i wanna proceed further...with my studies....i was so happy when my boss said he wanna support me for the advance studies....but whye everybody seems dont care about it???why????there is none of them who come to me and ask me this

"so..when do you plan to continue?"

why???am i asking too much??is it wrong if all that i asked for is attention???5 minutes of your valuable n precious 1 hour....can i???may i??will i??

-im tired-