~upset~

bee...

wats wrong??a simple question..but i swear..u wont have the courage even to think about the answer...u jus dont know how...ppfft!!!!!!!!!i hate this feeling..when u know sumthing n uve been hiding it for ages..but u juz cannot tell it out loud...hurm...life is not that hard aite..yet..i found it strange...coz it doesnt suit u the way u want it to be...:(

its raining outside...a heavy one...hurm....



p/s: life owh life...how i loathed mine but never fail to hope

amalkn gaya hidup yg sihat..

hye bee...

berapa rmi rakyat mesia now sedar yg mereka da obes???tak yah manusia laaa...kucing2 kat mesia pon obes tau...isk2....bbile da obes..org hon2 pon wat dek aje...da tak larat nk jln...mcm saye la...isk2..

bile saye cite kat beliau..maka kami telah wat satu treaty dimana kami bersetuju utk kuruskn bdn bersama2...da treaty itu sebenarnye dari 2thn lepas..tp tak berjaya2 lgik..kekekek....keluar je..nandos la..sushi la...pizza la..mcD laa..da laen2 la..

semlm tau...org gi jogging ngn pumpkin...hohohho...da la eap tak tentu leh dpt..tp excited plak nk gi jogging...the things is..saye sgt gemuxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx skrg....duh...sedih tau...sob..sob...so..kene ar wat sumthing..,pastu dia pon setuju utk teman...maka saye pon berjogging la ng beliau..

now..mkn pon da sekat2..sgt tak best...tp takpe....saye kene dpt kn bdn yg kurang gemux skit then bru mkn best2..owhh..saye harap saye kurus!!!

p/s: wish me all the best k

~~back to school~~

holla....im back to school...pick up my nephew..jiji from school...n taraaa...suddenly the flash back all comin...teringt time skola dlu...sgt best ok...heheheh....my 1st day at school...my 1st class...i cempaka...2 cempaka..then 3 cempaka...then 4 bijak..5 bijak n 6 bijak....wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!hehhehe...i miss the good old days...sgt2....i mean dat time tade masalah pon..gi skola pon main2...i dont really care wut is exam n all da crap...i just go to school coz my mom said i must go to school...isnt that easy??dude...now sume pon sgt upside down...me with the degree...me with the relationship..me with the ppl around me..me with the car..n me with the not so enuf money...lol....life is getting harder n harder..dont u think so bee??
but then again..it is all how u look at it...never take it or look at it as a problem....but take it n look at it as a challenge...

p/s: i will survive...

~it was so wonderful~~

dear bee...
huhuhuhu...wanna know wat happen last nite??today 11th april 2010(sunday)jeng..jeng...jeng...mula2 cni tau...syg call baba n ckp nk ajak kite kuar dinner..so bile balik umah dr softskill tu terus baba ckp muaz ajak kuar ..dia dtg amik kul 8..mak dia ajak ko mkn kat luar....so..reaksi kite..eyh??gila ke po??n at first i thought i was syg trick so that he can take me out...so i gave him a call and asked him..whats goin on??then he told me mama invite me for a dinner..oowhhhh..terus ade rush kat darah saye awk..takot + gementar+ nervous=blank....time tu mule la pikir...bju??spec or lens??tudung bese or indon???jeans or slack???theme color??bag??sandal???topics to chat??food to choose??drink??erghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!n time tu la i felt like...i dont have a baju..i dont have a bag..i dont have nice tudung to match...where is my sandal??bla..bla...bla...funny thing is..despite all the nervous thought..i feel good somewhere...god....it is a good sign right that syg's family now has slowly accepted me...alhamdulillah...:))

so syg pick me up around 8 and heading to sri ayuthaya at wangsa maju...my 1st time there...grrrr..in the car..i asked him stupid question like nnti nak order ape??sape yg orderkn??nk mkn ape??then he said.."relax la hun...i know u'll do well..n i'll teman u at any time even toilet"..so..im slowly calm down...smpi2...mama cam besela sgt welcoming...terus hug saye...oouchh,,im touched ok...n titi pon spt bese sgt best..owh gosh....slowly nervous tu da ilang n kitorang pon dinner cam bese....he's on my right n titi duduk on my left...so cam sgt comfy laa...thank to him n titi...

so..fwens out there..listen ere girls....just go to mall now n find a good dress even though u dont have a steady guy just yet..coz u never know when time like this mite come....huhuhuhuhuhu..

p/s: i love u....

oouchhh..buruk nye saye :((

why??

hye there..
i love my day today..n i hate it as well...life is so unfair...n i loathed the way its treat me...!!!im so pissed off....i just wanna cry...i wanna cry..cry...cry...

u know what bee...
after the final exam...only today i got the chance to went out n have some fun with my fren...it went so well...i went to lrt to pick her up + she have to wait for me for almost half an hour...we went to selayang so that i cud take a picture...then went to wondermilk...n throwing all the important facts n updates each other here n then...then we went to ou...so that i cud find something for this upcoming event..we went for movie which was fun..we even had henna...n thank to her...for making up my days...

bee...
i know..its my fault....kite balik lmbt..i know...but then again...it is after sometimes..n it is b4 7..but..why mak make so much hassle bout that??why???why dia sgt mara??her reasons were so unreasonable....dinner was not ready yet...n baba oredi da lapar...n kakak tak sempat beli coz ade keje....n kite??asyik nk kuar je..cuti2 tak reti nk duk umah!!!!bkn tau nk tolong ape e bkn yg patot...ok bee...this is the part yg kite sgt tak bole terima...abg kn ade??k.nora???nape tak pesan diorang???diorang balik keje kul 5 kn???y takle suh diorang??nape??mati ker diorang kalu pegi beli dinner utk parents sndri??kenapa aku yg bru kuar today...sgt jahat di mata mak????nape bile aku tak le tolong aku jdi sgt jahat??n abg slalu yg terbaik even dia tak perlu pon buat ape2...
owh..bee...i hate abg so much now!!!!i hate him!!!!!its always like that..aritu baba mara2..tengking2...pon same jugak..kite n kakak jugak yg jahat nye..pdhal...dr mula rumah renovate..kite n akak yg tolong...kite bkn nk ngungkit...i dont mind really...my parents jugak..tp takkan la its always kite anak yg tak bertimbang rase???????kite ni teruk sgt ke bee??kite tau..kite tak baik...kite tak tau kite bkn anak yg perfect...tp bee...kite tak cube sebaik mungkin..takkan smpi taknak ckp ngn kite bee??besar sgt ke???n again...dia borak ngan abg...mcm abg tu malaikat!!n i hate him!!!!teruk mane pon...degil mane pon..tak wat ape pon..he is still the best depan mata mak n baba!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!n i hate him!!!if it happen he will read this one day..yes abg..i hate him!!!as for now...!!!i really do..i hate u..i hate your wife!!!no matter how bad u guys did...ure always the shining star...to hell with the stars!!!i dont give a deym bout that...i dont wish to become my parents stars...but again...i also dont wanna be the blacksheep of the family..ive try so hard...i wake up early..i helped...n wut else????bee....i wish..i can go away..so that i dont have to face this everyday...it hurts u know...it hurts...why can she asked her fave son to guy n buy dinner???why???why???why cant abg...as a son..have the courtesy to at least asked about that??why???why??why it always us yg tak bole harap??why??why bee??why??im so tired of this...but i love my parents...i love them so much...n i dont think i can survive w/out them...but why they treat me dis way??it is after sometimes kn bru kuar..in fact..kite tak kuar pon mlm after exam tu coz diorang tak kasi...why bee????sediy bee...sediy sgt...n i know kakak pon rase bnda yg same coz she was crying mase kite masuk bilik dia td...bee...i really wish i cud run away...so that mak n baba wud realise that i love them so much..n please dont treat me like this...but bee...how???owh.....i hate abg..i hate him...!!!
i wished one day abg will realise that he is just not a great son or a great bro...i dont care if he cant be a great bro..but please be a good son!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

uuuwwwww

ok....da sgt lame tau tak tulis ape2...i pwomise u so many things but yet i did none of it...im sowy...lets get started k..1st jum hunting a pretty layout juz for u....

p/s: bru abes exam ni..hehhe