say nana to domestic violence...

I Got Flowers Today by Paulette Kelly

I got flowers today.
It wasn’t my birthday
or any special day.
We had our first argument last night,
and he said a lot of cruel things
that really hurt me.
I know he is sorry
and didn’t mean the things he said
because he sent me flowers today.

I got flowers today.
It wasn’t our anniversary
or any other special day.
Last night, he threw me into a wall
and started to choke me.
It seemed like a nightmare.
I couldn’t believe it was real.

I know he must be sorry
because he sent me flowers today.

I got flowers today,
and it wasn’t Mother’s Day

or any other special day.
Last night, he beat me up again.
If I leave him, what will I do?
How will I take care of my kids?
What about money?
I’m afraid of him and scared to leave.
But I know he must be sorry
because he sent me flowers today.

I got flowers today.
Today was a very special day.
It was the day of my funeral.
Last night, he finally killed me.
If only I had gathered enough courage
and strength to leave him,
I would not have gotten flowers today.

pumpkin....wake up... =)

bee..
hurm..i know...bru jek tulis td..sorry la..jgn la mara coz asyik kaco bee jek...hurm...nk spill sumthing..tp tak tau cner....so basically...pumpkin cite yg one of his friend ade problem dgn gf nye..so yeah..da tak contact for about 2 weeks..n nadaaaa...jus diam..so..pumpkin n i went into the discussion pillow talk last nite....n he explained it to me...what guys always wantd from woman..n i said to him...kite takkn dpt ape yg kite nk..so wat we can do is..make the best from what we have..he agreed but..somehow..hurm...love is never an easy task...it takes hundreds of years to be discovered..tp bile da jumpe..kite yg rosak kn nye..well...this is what i think about love like this....

remember earlier on when i said love is never selfish..n its people that selfish...well..i believed it is true..kadang2 kn bee..kite selalu ingt kite tunjuk yg we are the only person alive..everything only concerned about us...the only matters is you....so..kite la kn selfish...tp kite SELALU fikir yg kite la org yg paling kindhearted and paling down to earth..pathetic nye...sbb saye pon tergolong dlm org yg cmtu...n i must say..semua org pon...

tp bee...when it comes to love...n loving sumone..it is never selfish rite..we love that person..n ape yg kite buat..kite akn selalu justified yg ape yg kite buat is becoz kite chenta dia..n bcoz utk kebaikan dia...soalan nye...siapa kite utk tau ape yg baik utk org lain...but again...kite tau coz kite chenta dia....tp...si dia...dia dpt terima ke??kalu betul pon dia terima..it is becoz dia pon syg kite...dan dia tak mau kecik kn hati kite...so...kat sini la akn jd selfish nye...ape yg kite buat utk dia td tu...sebenarnye bkn utk dia..tp sbb we want it to be that way....jd..if bnda ni berterusan..jgn la blame si dia...sbb da smpi mase nye..utk dia pulak jd selfish...

so bee..the main point here is that..even though we really love a person..never make a decision for him...n never try to help him....guys..they dont need decision making woman...n help from woman..they need support..just be there when they need u...but never help..sumtimes...senyum pon bole buat dia senang hati ape..it is simple ..but we tend to overlook at it..tp perempuan skrg ni selalu sgt rase insecure...so...bile kite wat sume2 tu..kite ingt kite bole ikat dia ke??

im changing my mind bee...remember the other day??when im so amazed with the love padlocks???it is sweet...true indeed...but love doesnt work that way..

p/s: pumpkin..wake up baby..coz ure rite when u said love is like the two hands..it compliment with each other...with that,i rest my case ..:)

lesson to be learned

bee dearie...

ape yg jd minggu lepas akn dijadikan pengajaran seumur hidup....the truth is....

LOVE IS NEVER SELFISH...

kite je sebagai manusia yg tak pernah bersyukur...kite selalu maukn lebih dri ape yg kite ade..kite selalu nk jd hebat lebih dr org lain...kite selalu nk menunjuk pade org ape yg mereka tiada...dan kite katakn..im jus being myself..in mot showing off...the truth is...

KITE SGT BODOH SOMBONG...

kite selalu tunjuk kn yg kite alim...sembahyang cukup time...selalu mengeji keburukan yg org buat..selalu ingin membuat kebaikan...dan kite selalu ckp...kite deserve terbaik utk diri kite..the truth is...

KITE LAH SEBESAR2 KESELAHAN...

bodohnye kite..org dewasa..tapi masih maukan gula2 manis yg kite sndri tau akibatnye...kenapa ye???org dewasa itu tak dewasa akalnye..

bee...

money is not everything..agree??well...that is wat people who are in love claimed...tp mereka sgt cetek akal nye...sbb dlm hati ...selalu harap ade duit...jgn tipu laa..money plays a big role in relationship...sape jek yg couple ngn org yg tak bersesen ???jgnn tipu k..tepuk dada sndri..kite akn tau jawapan nye...

bee...

kite kene hargai ape yg kite ade..tu semua rezeki yg Allah bg pd kite...jgn la wish utk sesuatu yg lebih baik bile kite da dpt sesuatu yg kite inginkn dlu..sbb kite akn tergolong dlm org tak bersyukur..syg la org yg menyayangi kite...dgn jujur sekali...sbb kite takkn tau bile Allah akan tarik dia dr kite...kite mungkin akn kehilangan mereka kerana salah kite sndri...

p/s: owh bee...saye semakin kehilangan skill....

~sisterly drama~

bee...

wink....hehehhe..well..well..bile da berjaya buat..nk wat lagik la kn...so..here it is..my fave and the only sister in the world...owhooo....i love her so much n lucky to have her as my sister...she is such a great sister,daughter,employee,friend...just name it..she is!!she is AMAZING n i love her tenderly...she's always there when i need her...n always being a good supporter,listener,n adviser...sob..sob...i am lucky rite....

p/s:akak...love u sugar....u're simply the best:)

my love story...

bee...

yes2!!!!i did it..setelah bersusah payah....LOL...im not so a superb photographer+artist+techno savvy type of person...but..i really wanna do sumthing like this when it comes to US....sob..sob...after days of cracking my head+finding a lousy idea for eap..

~~I DID IT~~

YEAY!!!!!!

THUMBS UP FOR SYERA!!

p/s: baby..i hope u like it...:)

bee said: well done hunny....:) :)

Love padlocks

dear bee..
i was browsing the net as well as the newspaper earlier on for my research paper..suddenly this article captured me the most....

LOVE PADLOCKS-LOCK THE LOVE IN YOUR HEART TO A BRIDGE IN PARIS.....

aawwww.....isn't it sweet???it is so sweet..if only it took only 1 hour to drive to paris..i would go now...and buy a padlock..engraved

"MU'AZ & SYERA -ETERNITY"

and locked it there forever...and after 30years..both of us will go there and find our padlock just to make sure it is still there....owhhhh...........swetttttttttttttt.....but then...sadly to say..it takes thousand of ringgit to go to paris...so maybe i wud buy the padlock..yes...engraved it yes...n locked it at my wardrobe..hhahahaha....so that i could see it everyday..LOL....

in Paris..the city of love...there is a pedestrian bridge there named The Pont des Arts that crosses over the Seine River...this is the most popular place in the world where people kept on using the padlocks to symbollize their love...recently..the france govt decides to stop this romantic action because the thousand love padlocks now have become an eyesore so it has to be removed...owh..please dont....please....sob..sob...i've yet to affixed mine..can't u at least wait??????????huhuhuu...



"the Pont des Art"

"the 3x there means...i love you"

ok..the main point is that...it is amazing what love can turn people into...it looks stupid and absurd..but when it comes to love..i think it overruled any other words coz ppl would do anything about it eventho it might looks stupid...the padlocks here is to symbolize the love the couple's love..so...once the padlocks affixed to the bridge,gate,or in my case wardrobe..it remains forever...unless u unlocked it..so...i suggest once you locked the padlock..throw it away..so that you cannot unlocked it..i guess that's the reason being why people affixed it at the bridge..it wud be easier for them to throw the key..huhuhuhu...so..this romantic action should be encouraged i guess...hahaha........coz it develops feeling...REALLY...

"the love padlocks a.k.a cadenas d'amour"

p/s: love is like gula2 kapas...it is so sweet..no matter u like it or not...

what's wrong with malaysian??

bee...
just bear with me coz this wud be different..i mean..i got stuck..shock..n sad after reading the paper this morning:

"Corporal charged with causing death of teenager Aminulrasyid"

...lol....before this i jus lay low with my views pertaining to the boy who accidentally get shot by the policeman..i used the word ACCIDENTALLY because :

1. the policeman was shooting randomly bcoz they were chasing the car;
2.ppl...it is 2am in the morning..what the hecks a so+nice+son+15yo is was doing at that time;
3. there is no possibility for the policeman to say this to all criminal
"hey gimme your ic...owh??ure an adult??ok..now i can shoot u..."
and lastly: the reason being why the police shot is to stop the car after the nice son+stubbornly takmau berenti dat kete...so...how on earth the po lice can aim nicely so that the bullet will hit his head??hurm....

with all the points given above...well yeah...im on the police side...because..he accidentally shot him...not intentionally....n due to the public pressure n the upcoming election..the authority suddenly decided to press a charged against him..well done msia....coz...if this is so....the police will no longer have their freedom in exercising their duties to serve the nation...other than that..what's the point having the Police Act and Criminal Procedure Code and all the decided cases pertaining this issue...i meant..it was an accid ent la people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hurm...owho...i really hope this pakcik polis used accident as his defence...n i do hope ppl do not make so much hassle about this..let the police n court decide now...n take care of your own children so that they will not get shot..

of course...i feel sorry too for his death..he is only 15..or now..he was only a 15 years old boy..n there is a long way to go...but..people...waku up. .this is death we are talking about...sape kite nk soalkn....da Allah tentukn ajal dia time tu....umur tu..cara tu...plus...brought a case to a court is not always a wise decision...im afraid that..there is more evidence to come n his family will suffer later on...what if the evidence revealed is not as what they expected??what it the evidence showed is not like wat they want...n what will the public says bout the deceased then??

Malaysian is such a funny people..we concern about one matter over another..just because it is the prime news..everybody started to talk about laws...human rights.. and good governance..but..the truth is..we just care about ourself and our pocket...try to take a few seconds and asked ourselves...do we really care about the society??????

well people..if your answer is yes..please ..think again...coz there are thousand of ppl out there who is still die due to hunger ..there are hundreds of homeless ppl...and thanks to us...coz we are a caring society...

p/s: ppfftt..emosi gile ok...owh.....

p/ss: hopefully the outcome of the court decision is win-win situation....

headche...isk..

bee...
hye....ive been sick for this couple of days...it started of with a simple headache and later on i found myself crying in my bed coz it is too deym sakit...i went downstairs n told mak bout it..gosh..im sorry mak for creating such a fuss..but i juz cannot bear with it anymore at that time..so..mak asked me to lied down n she started to massage a lil bit coz i screamed evrytime she touched my head..poor mak..she must be scared n worried too at that time..after a while..i felt like nausea n taraaaaaaaaaaaaa...here we go...all the breakfast..luch..dinner had been thrown all out in one shot..yucks...luckily i manage to run to the public convenience room(as what Victoria Station named it which simply means toilet..heheheh)...then we went upstairs...n i tried to get back to my sleep//but i cant...:( it hurts....i fall asleep anyway..dont worry bout that..heheheh..im phD k when it comes to sleep...ive 20 ways how to sleep...ehehhehe...

the next morning mak told evryone bout me n everybody started to become a doctor...duh...i ges it migrain..but not so sure...but...i lost my fave spec dat nite..seriusly..i think it falls down the time when i was vomitted dat nite..n i didnt notice..hurm....spec...where art thou???

S.A.D

bee..
have u ever felt in your heartbeat that ure afraid of losing sumone u love da most??have u ever felt that u love them too much n it is better for u to keep distance...n have u ever felt that u miss someone that much that u wanna burst out...well...basically that is how i feel now...huhuhu...i dont know how to say this...but i missed him so much...i dont want his money..i dont wish to listen to 'i love u' everyday...n i dont want him to feel burden coz of me...all i want is that..his little time for me..n for god sake...i want his attention...is that too much to ask???tp..kite makin jauh...

bee...why ???why bother to tell me if your already made a decision...why??