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14 weeks already......

"How your baby's growing-14 weeks" 

"Hair is big news this week! Your baby is growing lots of it, not only on his head and brows but all over his body. This is covered in an ultrafine down, called lanugo, which usually disappears before birth. Some muscles are starting to work, too. This week your baby can grasp, squint, frown, grimace and even suck his thumb."

awwwwww....melting right bace ni...especially part "even suck his thumb" Ya Allah...mmg besar kuasa-Mu, mana la tau kn dlm perut bole buat things like that...dulu2 kite semua pun mcm ni kn....i'm so excited...last week pegi check-up...check heartbeat semua..doctor ckp alhamdulillah..baby sihat n membesar dengan normal...pastu kat scan machine tu nmpk mcm ade 2 bnda gerak2...mcm bye-bye kite..eyh ape tu??dlm hati kn..mcm cacing pun ade...pastu doktor mcm tau...."ni tgn baby"....Ya Allah...nangis...tak dpt tahan daa.....sbb bkn cacing tapi tgn baby..it is so cute...rase mcm tak nk bgn da...nk tgk je tgn tu...rase hilang sume rase sakit2 badan....mual...etc...mcm berbaloi-baloi...Mu'az muka mcm biar betul doctor ni...tak percaya gak..semoga baby akan sentiasa sihat tubuh badan..mental dan fizikal..aminnnnnn....

P/s: I hate my boss..ade sape2 lgik nk join club ni??

RIP..Abeer Qassim Al-Janabi

Hye all. Ooppppsss…sorry. Assalamualaikum…

Wishing all of you who come across my blog in a good health and showered with Allah’s love and affection.

Another week passed by. Last week was quite tough for me. I cried a lot n I trouble my husband a lot. It seems like I have a problem adjusting myself in this new phase of life call pregnancy and motherhood. All the happiness during the time when I knew I am pregnant went away. I forgot how I felt at that moment. And all I have is myself to blame. I am so carried away with my feelings and emotions and so I put the blame on my hormones changes and all. I keep on complaining and crying and mumbling and look for someone to be blamed which I found none!

The final strike was when I read about this poor little girl name Abeer. She was 14 years old. Yes. WAS. She was raped and killed by this inhuman and cold-hearted American army during American invasion in Iraq back in 2006.

The story goes like this and I quote this heart breaking story from Mr. Shaun Mullen from his blog. You can read the entry in full vide this link : http://kikoshouse.blogspot.com/2007/07/happy-birthday-abeer-qassim-hamza.html

“When four American soldiers, two dressed in Iraqi mufti and not uniforms, appeared at the Al-Janabi farmhouse on the afternoon of March 12, 2006, they were not entirely unexpected. Abeer had told her mother that some of the Americans at the checkpoint were being sexually aggressive toward her and her mother, fearing for her safety, had been making her stay home.

Among the soldiers entering the house was Private First Class Steven Green, a 21-year-old boy-man and petulant loner with a history of drug and alcohol problems and a petty criminal record back in Midland, the titular home of the Bush family in Texas oil patch country…

“…Once at Abeer's house Green herded her father, mother and Hadil, her 7-year-old sister, into a bedroom. Abeer’s brothers, Ahmad and Muhammad, were at school.

Green shot the father several times in the head, the mother several times in the abdomen and the sister several times in the head and shoulder with an AK-47 that the family was legally allowed to keep in the house, proudly announcing to his buddies, "I just killed them, all are dead."

Green then turned on Abeer, whom U.S. officials initially claimed was 20 or 25. As if that justified what happened next.

Abeer's dressing gown and bra were torn from her body and her legs tied. Green and two other soldiers then took turns raping her. By the time they had finished, blood was flowing from her vagina. Green then shot Abeer in the head two or three times, threw a blanket over her torso and set her body afire in a crude effort to cover up the atrocity.

Back at the checkpoint, Green burned his blood-drenched clothing and swore everyone to secrecy…”

“…Neighbors reported the crimes to a nearby Iraqi Army unit. while members of Bravo Company told the Iraqi soldiers and neighbors that the family had been killed by Shiites because they were Sunnis. The claim was widely disbelieved, prompting deep anger and inevitable retaliatory attacks.

On June 16, 2006, insurgents ambushed a Bravo Company patrol, killing Specialist David J. Babineau, 25, and kidnapping Privates First Class Kristian Menchaca, 23, and Thomas L. Tucker, 25, who were tortured and beheaded and their mutilated and booby trapped bodies left near Yossifiyah, the second point of the Triangle of Death.

The Mujahedeen Al-Shura Council, an Al Qaeda affiliate, posted a video on the Internet showing the bodies and stating that they were revenge killings for Abeer's rape and murder.

The bodies are seen on a bridge over a river in the videotape. Both are drenched in blood. The head of one trooper is held high by an armed man, like a trophy, while the head of the other is being stamped on by another armed man. One man appears to also have been shot and the other possibly hit with an explosive.

(There was further retaliation: In October 2006, the Islamic Army in Iraq released a video of the manufacture and launch of an "Abeer" rocket, while in May of this year -- three months ago yesterday to be exact -- insurgents overran an outpost southwest of Mahmoudiyah and abducted three soldiers, one who was later found slain and two of whom remain missing and are presumed dead.)

How ironic that these three men were butchered by fanatical adherents of a religion that treats women as mere chattel and stones and even rapes them if they disobey religious law and bring dishonor on their husbands or families. But I digress.

The cover-up of the crimes by Green and the other Bravo Company enlisted men was finally blown open on June 20, 2006, when Private First Class Justin Watt, shaken by the deaths of Babineau, Menchaca and Tucker, revealed the Al-Janabi family rape-murders during what the Army calls a "combat stress debriefing," or in medical parlance, a psychotherapy session.

…….owh I cried again as I was copying this story. Just google her name. You  will find hundreds of post bout her...what is wrong with this people???She was just a 14 years old girl. I guess the humanity just doesnt exist anymore. so...to all potential rapist out there, please remember this, everytime you have this bad intention, please go and look for a prostitute instead!!!!!  the fact that in Iraq there is so much stress and they cannot handle it is out of question and it is very stupid of the defend counsel to come out with such an excuse! 

So I guess my maternal instinct finally have finally kick in I realised one important point. You have to love and appreciate what you have! Me too! I should stop complaining about my life ..or at least reduced it..u cant not expect me to change in one night time anyway. No parents in this world want something bad happen to their own child. N it starts from the day u know you will become a parent…

I can’t wait to see my baby!

My Pumpkin is now my Husband

weeeeeeeee....on our wedding night 13.11.2012

i heart you!!!

on our solemnization day....11.11.2011.. 

peewiitttttttttttt...on our wedding day... all i can say is that... Thank God i found him :')

Assalammualaikum,

Wow…it been a while since my last post?? July 2011.. almost a year…good job …well done…hahahha…

Anyway… a brief fact about my life since last july.. im HAPPILY EXTREMELY married…and now…I am 2 month pregnant…gooshhh..soon going to be a MOMMY???!!!..confuse jap~~

anyway..im super-duper tired…ive mentioned right im reading in chamber (pupillage/chambering) whatever you want to call it…last year..in this one particular firm in Malaysia..yeah…so upon the completion of my pupillage period they offered me a job here as a legal assistant.

Setelah difikirkan masak2…aku pun terima kasih aje la sbb org da offer aku kerja…so start laa keje situ early December 2011..lame2…hurm…tah laa…I don’t know what is my expectation..the thing is I’ve been here since January 2011..si I should expect that this kind of thing will happen..it just a mtter on how am I going to deal with it…

Now that I’m pregnant. Things have changed. I mean the way I dealt with things. To tell the truth I’m just tired of this place. Everyone here is nice except for this particular old lady..she is in her 50’s.. so consider old aite. Oh gosh.. pregnancy is good but it can be BAD as well…it affect my hormones n my body tremendously. Im not my self. I grumpy all the time.. I complaint all the time… n I always feel annoyed all the time.. mcm dlm dunia ni aku sorang jek betul!!! Nak kene tampar laju2 ke???

So semua bnda yg aku wat kat office before ni…aku akan rase cam.. “ why on earth I have to do this?” yes…things that is beyond my job scope. Like picking up phone…transfer it to others…which suppose to be done by receptionist? Ok…entertain despatch, courier man, etc which is logically to be done by a clerk cum receptionist. I HAVE TO DO THAT AS WELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My first trimester was quiet bad. If you think it is only a puke whats a big deal..think again. It is not just a puke. It is the Puke.n i puke at night...it is not morning sickness...for my case it is night sickness...so imagine..after your sleepless night, on the morrow you have to go to work..n have to do so many things and stuff.n i magine after 2 or   3 days in a row u don't sleep???hurm...i really wanna die! no... I really wanna quit from my job since death is not an option...

so..dilemma.... should i quit ??can i??

"Life is not hard..it is me who drive it nuts!"

regards,

-me-

Ramadhan datang lagik...

Assalamualaikum Ramadhan....tahun ni..tahun hijrah yang ke 1432...

Seperti tahun2 hijrah yg lepas....semua umat Islam akan menunggu2 kedatangan Ramadhan....betapa berkatnye bulan ni...subhanallah...Allah aje yg tau....aku...seperti yg lain...punya seribu impian yg ingin aku kejar utk Ramadhan kali ni...sesungguhnya..mmg Ramadhan kali ini byk kelebihan nye utk aku...banyak benda yg berlaku utk aku sebelum Ramdhan yg baru ini...buat aku terfikir...sebenarnya...itu la cara Allah utk buat aku fikir panjang yg hidup ni singkat...akhirat la tujuan kita....

1) aku baru habis belajar november yg lepas....dan sekarang..walaupon chambering tu still kire belajar...tp aku da kenal erti tanggungjawab....pada bos....kerja kene siap before certain time...kene meet dateline...kene make sure client tak kene interest bank..kene make sure keje tu to the best for the client's interest ans scope...persoalan nye ialah....ape pulak tanggungjawab aku pada Bos yg Maha Besar pula????mcm sembahyang laa....wajib buat certain2 time..aku sendri kene make sure yg interest aku kat akhirat nnti terbela.....

2) sejak 2 minggu lepas....aku dapat 3 berita tentang kematian....sumpah...berita mcm ni sgt dreadful...i was crying n crying the moment encik syg msg bgtau..."Hunny, shakira alep meninggal" Ya Allah....baru mcm 2 hari before that we were chatting with each other n i told her to take a good care of herself n its good to know that she is now moving on with her life...mmg kn...jodoh ajal di tgn tuhan....sungguh..aku tak sangka yg Allah akan tarik nyawa dia secepat ni....then...aku dapat berita...ayah kawan ra[at aku kat skolah dulu meninggal....Takziah fatin...moga roh arwah dicucuri rahmat...tabah la wahai sahabat....sesungguhnya Allah maha mengetahui....then...semlm....ibu mertua ucu manja meninggal....aku hanya pandang pada wajah2 saudara yg kehilangan....aku??cuba aku letak kn tempat aku di tempat mereka...rasanya...mereka sgt tabah....jikalau aku di situ...aku pasti menangis....meratap....dan meraung....sungguh...aku belum bersedia utk kehilangan org2 kesayangan aku....Ya Allah...sempena Ramadhan kali ini...aku panjatkn doa agar kau panjangkan umur kedua ibu bapa ku...keluarga ku...bakal suami ku dan keluarga nya....dan rakan2 ku dan keluarga mereka.....kau berila kami peluang utk meraikan Ramadhan yg akan dtg lgi......

3)Ramadhan kali ini....insyaAllah...Ramadhan terakhir aku sebelum bergelar isteri....soalan bersedia atau tidak....itu bukan soalan lgik...yg penting aku harus persiap kn diri utk jd isteri yg baik buat encik syg....betul...kami 2-2 iman takla tebal mane....tp....masing2 sedang perbetulkn diri...bukan mudah utk hidup berumah tangga....itu yg selalu encik syg ckp...i know..deep inside he is trying his best to provide everything for me...encik syg.....hunny doa Ramadhan kali ni Allah akan beri kite sejuta keberkatan utk kite melayari hidup berdua....moga Allah takkn uji kite dengan rintangan dan dugaan yg besar dan hebat..moga kite dpt menjadi satu keluarga yg diredhai....insyaAllah...

Ramadhan....thank you for coming....im so happy ive another chance to meet you again this year...oh Allah....berila peluang taubat utk aku...keluarga ku...bakal suami ku...rakan2 ku...da semua umat Islam di dunia dan di akhirat....

tahniah Malaysia

ok...mmg frust tahap executive class...tp adat laa...maybe tade rezeki mesia nk menang..nk wat cner...

smua dok kate defender mesia tah pape...tapi diorang pon da cube sehabis baik...kesian gak laaa..ok la tu....dulu bola sepak mesia lgik teruk...now da byk improve..sume hebat2 kn...despite 2 beradik kembar yg da kawen n now hampeh gile main..yg lain ok kot..safee sali....kunalan..muslim...khairul fahmi....syg sharul idlan aje tak berapa nk best mlm ni...hurm...

ok...saye frust kot...gile frust...tp tak pe mesia...cube lgik!!!!!!pade org yg kate mesia akan kalah tu...tak tau hati perut korang ni cner....korang gi la negara lain..tade smangat cinta kn negara lgsg!

tahniah laa pemain mesia....sorry la korang tak menang...korang sure frust kn...takpe laaa..ade la game lain yg korang akan menang...jgn give up...ni sume pengajaran...hopefully...kite sume akan jd yg lebih baik kn..mane tau...siapa tau...tu sume keje Tuhan..yg pasti kite kene kerja keras lgik...come on Malaysia....i love you Harimau Malaya.........................................................................................

P/s: singapore..kindly go to hell....hahahhaha*benci ko!*